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wow hes looking for an engagement ring. and knowing him he'll find me the perfect ring. My ex got me a pretty ring but it was eh because he didnt pick it out for me, I chose everything from how big the rock was to the nice pretty band with some extra little diamonds. I got lots of compliments on it. but eh.Clancy is so good to me. I wonder if he gets jealous when I hang out with my guy friends. Deo and jordan and Pino. I miss Pino because we can have good conversations together. And well hes just down to earth and he tells me things that matter and make sense to me and should make sense to the world but it doesnt.
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its so nice to get phone calls from him telling me that he calls because he wants to hear my voice again. he shows me off to all of his friends and tells me he misses. im not used to all this sweetness =)
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[19 Dec 2004|02:49am] |
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yesterday was ssooo great(and including today)!! First me and Nelson went to the this thai restaurant that i love. i love their curry and duck, yuummers. Then he came over to my house and met my parents. He was so respectful and nice. thank god they like him but i already knew they would. we watched requiem of a dream & queen of the damned. he spent the night. its so nice being held in his arms. my mom didnt even care that he stayed the night. amazing! he is sooo much taller than me. so god damn sexy. i dropped him off at the airport today. he's going home to visit. im going to miss my marine skater boy.
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Tomorrow ive invited Nelson to my house...for the first time. I hate inviting people to my house because people tend to judge me for what i have. I know for a fact its even scared a guy off, lol. guys are so insecure. Usually i dont care because im proud of who i am and im proud of the hard work my family has gone through but i reeally dont want Nelson thinking im a spoiled bitch. and yes i know i can act like one....alot. i cant help it. i am ssooo excited for tomorrow. i havent felt like this well in like forever!! and i dont feel like anything could ever ruin this good mood. i feel so lucky. i feel like he's my christmas present from above or whatever watches over us. wow, doesnt that sound corny. this is probably why i stopped writing in this so much, lol. i just want to hold him and never let go.
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[14 Dec 2004|12:13pm] |
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I saw a shooting star last night. i can never be so caught off guard, knowing what to wish for but theres always so much on my mind, i always think im going to fuck it up by wishing for the wrong thing. But i didnt this time. You can never see too many shooting stars, isnt that right? I would love to tell you what i wished for but then it wouldnt come true. =) and then i would be very sad.
im going to be babbling about this new boy in my life. just a warning if you dont feel like going on =) lol
I went to the movies with Nelson (the marine) and Maria the other night. He's so sexy and so very flirtatious. He really cant seem to keep his hands off of me. not in neccessarily in any sexual way though. he's just always caressing my arm or leg or something. he's such a wonderful kisser too. The first night i met him he appeared to be alittle shy, i thought maybe alittle too shy for me but there was something about him. I had to give him my number. The next time we hung out, which was at a lame "hotel party" deo asked me to go to, i realized why i had chosen him. he's very outgoing, not very shy at all, i like the way he dresses, and good god those eyes!! so sexy. As if it couldnt get any better, he's a libra =)
Kris really made me feel quite worthless. Dating a horse faced bitch who was supposed to be my friend (not best friend guys, people seem to be getting that mixed up)for quite some time. There was a shit load of betrayal going on. And although i hate to admit it, i like to seek revenge. I never once wanted to get back with kris. not even when he asked me to go back with him acouple months after the break up, i said yes because of history, but my heart was never there. it was over long before the initial break up. but it was the past that i didnt want to let go of. im not sure why to be honest, i mean damn it wasnt like we had the greatest of relationship at all, lol. Although me and kris never did get back together and he and jacquie were supposedly a couple, me and kris continued to have sex more often than im sure kris will admit, and jacquie will want to believe. Until walls started to close in on him late last summer he broke up with jacquie, well thats we he told me that same night and we had our fun in a friend's bathroom. he got scared, who could blame him, he was fucking up badly. I think he thought if he does this now, later they can start off fresh. geez, what a pussy. anyways. and probably for about the third time i told kris to stop talking to me, never again shall we speak or see each other, scum of the earth, right? But then i read in jacquie's journal about how ill always be in the picture, always in the background, blah blah blah. and actually i wasnt at the time but i wanted to put it to the test. so i called kris after not speaking to him for 2 months. i asked him to get something to eat with me. he of course agreed. and again of course,well you know what happened. i couldnt even tell you how many times we had sex since then. it all really becomes a blur, if you know what i mean. I never did call kris after that first time. he always called me, and after two weeks of no contact he comes to my work. he did that alot during the summer, random visits from the ex at work, how lovely it was at the time =) I said to him "long time no see" and he responds "ive been waiting for you to call me" and well i explain to him that of course i know about him and jacquie still and i dont feel like bothering but he then of course comes over to my house the day after thanksgiving (i had the house all to myself) and spent the night. how nice. and thats the end. i actually really just feel sorry for jacquie. how must it feel being in a relationship full of lies. well the truth be told.
i on the other hand couldnt be more happier or content.
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[12 Dec 2004|10:39am] |
i just had the most wonderful night with the sexiest marine. he has extremely sexy tattoos. He just got one last night actually, so hot so hot. He snuck me in the barracks, lol. he's such a trouble maker, i love it. he's got such a lovely body, hes so fit, so sexy. i stayed the whole night with him, till well just about now.
good god im smitten.
he put me in his cellphone as sexy eyes. yum.
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[05 Dec 2004|12:13am] |
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i just met the sexiest, cutest, nicest, marine guy!! I am excited!!!!! =)
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[01 Dec 2004|11:41pm] |
hmmmm.....
30 hrs of cosmetology,
5 classes at aacc,
and 20+ hrs of work,
a week.......
should i dig my own grave now or later....
at cosmetology school im going to be making money too soo i guess it wont be that bad, right? im actually excited for next semester though, its going to go by fast, its going to be stressful...i can picture it now--->breaking out of pimples..must give myself weekly faaciiialls)
mmmmm i cant wait to get my license. I love my school and my teacher and all the students are so nice and I learn from everybody. And everybody is so pretty! in acouple of weeks ill be working on real clients instead of those damn manikin heads. exciiiting! =)
ugh! growing pains! my boobs hurt!!!!!!
im going to go snuggle in my bed and read the book that finally came in the mail after ordering it a month ago.
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[24 Nov 2004|01:05pm] |
summers eve
please come to me
sprout me a thousand loving leaves.
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I held him in my arms after a session of love. Tears rolled down my face although i cant tell you if they were from love or hate. I havent spoken to him since that day, much of a possibility that these days will be infinite. I cant say that i love or care for such a man. It may be better that my brain keeps it that way so in the end i couldnt possibly get hurt. what lies! So it be known...."Once a cheater, always a cheater"
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People try to tell me how to feel
but
Its never too late to say goodbye
I feel the greatest gift of all
And nobody can take that away from me
I feel...
I feel love.
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[07 Oct 2004|12:58am] |
taken by Dennis
Your name: Stephanie, proud to be a Bonaviso
Age: 19
Height: 5'4"
Natural hair color: dark brown
Eye color: green/red/ and believe it or not, blue
Number of siblings: one
Glasses/contacts?: both
Piercings: 8
Tattoos: one
Braces?: no
FAVORITE...
Color: pink
Band: jack off jill
Song: talk show
Stuffed animal: cheshire!!
TV show: Simpsons, that 70's show
Movie: fear and loathing in las vegas, super troopers, resident evil, equilibrium....i like alot
Book: any marian keyes or elizabeth wurtzel books
Food: cheesy foods or curry
Flower: lilacs
Scent: love spell
Animal: i love all animals
Cereal: captain crunch berries
Website: ebay
Cartoon: simpsons, family guy, anime, futurama, sealab 2000, invader zim
DO YOU
Play an instrument?: used to know piano and guitar
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?: hahaha....i wish i had the time!
Like to sing?: always do
Have a job?: yerp
Like to play sports?: nope
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: no
Have a crush on someone?: no
Live somewhere NOT in the united states?: germany
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?: 6
Have any special talents/skills?: i think having to put up with myself is a skill all in its own
Excercise daily?: yerp
Like school?: yerp
CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards?: nope, never tried though
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?: no
Speak any other languages?: no
Go a day without food?: no
Stay up for more than 24 hours?: yeah
Read music, not just tabs?: i used to be able to, i havent in a while
Roll your tongue?: yes
Eat a whole pizza?: lol.. i dont think so buddy
HAVE YOU EVER
Snuck out of the house?: yes
Cried to get out of trouble?: yes!
Gotten lost in your city?: yes
Seen a shooting star?: yes
Been to any other countries besides the united states?: yes, germany and korea
Had a serious surgery?: no
Stolen something important to someone else?: no
Solved a rubiks cube?: no
Gone out in public in your pajamas?: yes
Cried over a girl?: no
Cried over a boy?: yes
Kissed a random stranger?: yes
Hugged a random stranger?: yes
Been in a fist fight?: no
Been arrested?: no
Done drugs?: yerp
Had alcohol?: yerp
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?: nope
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?: yes
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?: no
Swore at your parents?: yes
Been to warped tour?: no
Kicked a guy where it hurts?: yes
Been in love?: no
Been close to love?: no
Been to a casino?: yes
Ran over an animal and killed it?: no
Broken a bone?: no..knock on wood
Gotten stitches?: no
Had a waterballoon fight in winter?: no
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?: no
Made homemade cupcakes?: yes
Bitten someone?: yes
Been to disneyland/disneyworld?: no what the hell
More than 5 times?: no
Been to niagra falls?: no
Burped in someones face?: no
Gotten the chicken pox?: yes
WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth: this morning
Went to the bathroom: 10:40 tonight, right before i we went into the movie theatre
Saw a movie in theaters: lol....see above
Read a book: this morning
Had a snow day: last winter
Had a party: the weekend before last
Made fun of someone: sunday
Made fun of a celebrity: unless they're wearing something ridiculous, i dont care to keep up with any of them...its hard for me to remember any of their god damn names for christ sakes.
Tripped in front of someone: i dont know...its been awhile i guess.
Went to the grocery store: last tuesday
Got sick: not since the beginning of the summer
Cursed: always
PICK ONE
Fruit/vegetables: fruits!!
Black/white: black
Lights on/lights off: lights off
TV/movie: movie
Car/truck: car
Body spray/lotion: spray
Cash/check: cash
Pillows/blankets: blankets
Headache/stomach ache: headache
Paint/charcoal: paint
Chinese food/mexican food: chinese
Summer/winter: summer
Snow/rain: rain
Fog/misty: misty
Rock/rap: rock
Meat/vegetarian: meat
Boy/girl: boy
Chocolate/vanilla: chocolate
Sprinkles/icing: icing with sprinkles on top. yummers.
Cake/pie: cake
French toast/french fries: french fries
Strawberries/blueberries: strawberries
Ocean/swimming pool: pool
Hugs/kisses: hugs
Cookies/muffins: cookies
Wallet/pocket: wallet
Window/door: window
Emo/goth: emo
Pink/purple: pink
Cat/dog: dog
Long sleeve/short sleeve: short sleeve
Pants/shorts: pants
Winter break/spring break: spring break
Spring/autumn: spring
Clouds/clear sky: clear sky
Moon/mars: moon
FRIENDSHIP
Do you have a best friend?: Bonnie and Maria and Katelyn and Julia.. theyre all there for me
Have you ever liked one of your friends?: yeah
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends?: right now the chicks are outnumbering the guys
Have you ever lost a friend?: uberbitch...always unforgivable.
Have you ever gone to an amusement park with a friend?: last sunday!
Whats an inside joke between you and a friend?: "sauce!"
Have you ever gotten in a big arguement with a friend?: no
Whats the nicest thing youve ever done for a friend?: driven him to the eastern shore so he can see his girlfriend
Whats the nicest thing a friend has ever done for you?: listens and gives me realistic advice.
Do you miss any of your old friends?: yeah :( still waiting for a letter.
What friend have you known the longest?: hmm...probably matt.
Do you regret anything youve done to a friend?: no
If so, what is it?: i dont do my friends wrong!
How often do you spend time with your friends?: i have alot of friends but they all dont know each other so its really hard to see all of them so i feel really bad when i cant...its hard to say.
Do any of your friends drive?: the most of them...thank god we're past that stage and age.
Whats the dumbest thing youve done with a friend?: there was 7 of us,three cars, going down richie highway honking our horns, disturbing the peace and confusing the other drivers......this was actually the other day..lol
What do you think your friends think of you?: lol, i dont know...
Have you ever been in love?: yes
If you have, with who?:
Are you single?: yes
Are you in a relationship?: lol, no
Do you believe there is someone for everyone?: no
What is your idea of the best date?: relaxation
What was your first kiss like?: weird, spin the bottle, cute guy though.
Do you think love is a load of shit?: no
Whats the best experiance youve ever had with the opposite sex?: n/a
If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?:yes
Have you ever been dumped?: yes, first boyfriend...but i dont really count that as a relationship.
Have you ever dumped someone?: yerp
Whats the most sexual thing youve done with the opposite sex?: tmi
I....
am: cozzy
want: to finish reading my book
need: sleep
crave: food
love: my bedroom...when its not messy
did: alot in school today
feel: like i always do
miss: louis
am annoyed by: ugh
would rather: be sleeping
am tired of: life itself
will always: be myself
SILLY STUFF
What is your favourite genre of music?: n/a
What time is it now?: 1:33am
What day is it?: wednesday
Whens the last time you called someone?: 11:30pm
How much money do you have right now?: maybe $40 if im lucky
Are you hungry?: alwaaayyys
Whatcha doin?: thinking of what i can do to get rid of this headache
Do you like parades?: no
Do you like the moon?: tis my love
What are you going to do when youre done with this?: read
Isn't cup a funny word when you repeat it over and over?: no
If you could have any magical power what would it be?: i want to fly like on batwing
Have you ever had a picnic?: yeeesss!
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